     
There's always going be that
one thing you hate, but can't change,
that one mistake you can't take back,
& that one memory you would do
anything to have again.
     
and I know the one person
in the world that I thought I could
completely trust, is lying to me.     
actually, i don't even know why
i'm still around. why i'm still waiting
for you, why i still let you hurt me      
Everyone in the world could have told me
he was going to break my heart,
but there's just some things you have
to find out on your own.
I promised myself i would'nt risk the
chance of getting hurt again, but for
some reason when im with you it all
seems worth it <3 
Alone and sad she
sits and stares, and
desperately wonders
if anyone really cares
She may be confused about a
lot of things, but one thing she
knows is that she's happiest
when she is with him 
11:12
maybe there's a reason
why you always miss it.
i can't explain what i'm going through,
but i would turn away the world tonight,
just so that i could be with you. 
i don't want to like him anymore.
i'm obviously not good enough.
but there is seriously something about him
that makes me like him so much more.
there was always something about him
that makes me go absolutely crazy.
and this is why i didn't want to fall for him.
i didn't want another dissapointment.
i didn't want to get my hopes up
i didn't want to cry, i didn't want to lie.
but it looks like i've fallen hard again. 
I don't know why we all hang on to
something we know were better off
letting go. It's like were scared to lose
what we don't even really have.
Some of us say we'd rather have
that something then absolutely
nothing, but the truth is,
"To have it halfway is harder
than not having it at all."   
i had you and you had me
I thought we were perfect
I thought we could be
you were the best thing I had ever known
so why did you leave me here all alone? 
Who am i kidding. There is no such thing
as a happy ending and no prince charming 
It's almost like you had it planned;
its like you smiled, took my hand and said:
"hey, Im about to screw you over big time" 
I hate the fact I love you. I hate it that I care. I hate you for not knowing this.
I hate it you're not there. I mostly hate our memories, that make me cry each night.
I hate how all these come about, each time you are in sight. I hate how
when I see you, my heart just breaks in two, and yet
with all the pieces, I know I'll always love you. I hate how
life goes on, when mine just stays in place. I hate how my world shatters, each time
I see your face. I hate it how you did this, and that
you know how much I care. I hate how you bring me down, with every
little stare. I hate it how you know, that none of this is true. Even though
I'm hurting, I can't hate the fact, I love you. 
The saddest thing in the world
is loving someone, who used to love you. 
and basically...
i just miss the sweet kid
i fell in love with 
how can i forget you when
you're always on my mind? how can i not want you when you're all i need inside? how can i move on if
i can't stand to see us apart? how can i stop loving you if you control my heart?
you know its meant to be
when, even the times you cant
stand him, he`s still the only
one on your mind 
she walks away with one look back,
what can you expect?
she's leaving her whole life behind.
would i say we have a history?
no. that implies that there was
something worth remembering.
see, all it was, was a delusional girl, and a boy who couldn't bring himself to give a damn. 
your best friends become bitches
your boyfriend becomes a prick
homework goes in the trash
cellphones are being used in class
detention becomes suspension
soda becomes beer
gum becomes pot
bikes become cars
lollipops becomes cigarettes
lipgloss becomes makeup
french kissing becomes sex
yupp ... we`re growing up 
It's hard to accept someone you care about doesn't care about you.
And that you were right all along
When you always had that doubt in your mind
But you believe what they say and all their promises
Because you want to believe them
Because you love them      
sometimes when i look at you, i just become sadly
aware... that all those things i used to feel for you,
well they're still there.      
I'll stay strong, I'll be fine. Carry on with my life. I still stare at the sky, pray for rain, all the time. Why'd you run, did you hide, why'd you leave, no goodbye? When the clouds take the sky, does a soul, give you life?      
Missing someone isn't about how long it has been since you have seen them or the amount of time since you've talked. It's about that very moment when you're doing something and you wish that they were right there with you.      
my dream would be to hear rocks hit my window
and to look out and see [[you]] standing out there
in the pouring rain
 
Sometimes I feel there's a hole inside of me; an emptiness that at times seems to burn. I have this dream of being whole. Not going to bed each night wanting. But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me and I want to be seen. - Practical Magic 
to every girl who gossiped about me
in corners of parties;
to those who were my slap in the face;
to the close-minded or misunderstanding;
to those who broke my heart:
you all challenged me to become the personi wanted to be.
i am stronger because of the trials
you put me through
and no matter what you have done to me,
you have unknowingly done so much more for me. 
tne day you're gonna want that girl. That girl that knew she wasn't perfect, but tried to be perfect for you. The girl that believed the scraps of you she was given were worth it, because something was better than nothing. That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you, and loving you was the only way she could. The girl who sees your flaws, but values them as much as your strengths. That girl who still can't bring herself to hate you, even though sometimes you probably deserve it. That girl who saw past your pretty eyes and treasured parts of you that no one else has ever appreciated. The girl who realizes she may never have your heart, but will carry the image of you in hers forever. The girl that sees this and still loves you. The girl that should have you, but doesn't.. Even though she deserves it. 
BEST FRIENDS:
know that you're slow,
stupid, && mess around
yet, they still don't care
about beeing [s e e n]
with you in (p u b l i c)
Because they know they're idiots too
<3. 
-- remembering you is easy
-- i do it everyday, missing you is
-- the heartache that never goes away 
some days i wish i was a little kid again
when the biggest drama in school was
when your best friend stole your snack 
it`s like a routine.
i fall for you on Monday.
i like you from Tuesday to Thursday.
you make me mad on Friday.
i think i'm over you over the weekend.
but the second i see you on Monday morning,
i fall for you again && again .. 
don't come running to me when
that girl puts a hole through your heart
because I'll just walk away & leave you stranded.
Just like you left me when I needed you most. 
so we fall for stupid boys
we make lots of dumb mistakes
we like to act stupid
& talk really fast
& laugh really loud
but us teenage girls, we're really
good at one thing ; staying strong 
in life friends are the most precious gift
we are given, the most sacred. turn your
back on them & you truely have nothing 
take my hand across this slippery ice,
i promise, we'll make it & if we don't, we fall together. 
even though miles may seperate you
& maybe you have even grown apart
there are those certain people that will
stay forever in your heart 
&& as tears fall from her eyes
she tells herself she doesnt care
no way, no how
another christmas alone
you'd think she'd be used to it by now 
you are not friends because
you sit together at the lunch table,
talk on the phone,
have matching flip-flops,
or can recite eachother's wardrobe.
When she smiles,
a grin forces itself across your face
no matter how angry you are.
When she cries,
instantly you feel her pain,
and want to cry with her.
When you look her in the eye,
you know there's no one
you could ever trust more
regardless of how many broken
hearts you've had.
That's what it means to be friends 
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